Packing Up Our Troubles

First of all, I want to thank everyone for the wonderful birthday wishes! It was a Grand time had by all last night, and I thoroughly enjoyed being with my family and Ben.

I even was able to enjoy my meal because it was well tasty!

Mum and Erik wanted to try the strawberry margaritas, and Ben also convinced me that I should give it a whirl – so dad just ordered us a pitcher and by Jove it was WELL tasty and quite the thirst-quencher! Ben sure enjoyed one as well, and dad took a sip of Mum’s, but decided to have a couple Mexican ales instead of the margaritas!


And today, we all wanted to leave for the North Sea this evening after dinner, but dad insisted that we put in a hefty round of Study Mode studies since he said we most likely won’t be doing much studying this weekend!  I think he is dead-on right about that!

So we will have a pretty intense night of studies ahead of us, for certain.

Carel will be coming over later on to spend the night since we are planning on leaving well early tomorrow morning – well BEFORE dawn, according to Ben’s dad! But I don’t mind when we leave that early as it gets us up to the sea earlier and gives us a bit more time.


So, in a few short hours it will be time for all of us heading to the North Sea to pack up our troubles and get ready to cast them into the understanding waters. From there, we will listen and wait for various answers and solutions to the many dilemmas that have troubled and worried us this past week. It will be a release of our inner souls and minds, giving all to our wonderful North Sea – only to get back what she is willing – wisdom, knowledge, and a better understanding of life.

Thank you, our dear North Sea!

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Happy Birthday, Love!


Happy 17th Birthday, Amar!

The day is planned, and Amar won’t know about it unless he reads this post or until we head out for his birthday celebration.

First of all, Erik will make sure Amar doesn’t read this post, and second of all, Amar only hinted at where we might be going for his birthday dinner. Actually, the little weasel got it spot on!

Since he fell in love with the place before because he could actually TASTE the Mexican cuisine, he put in plenty of hints to me to return to Rose’s Cantina. He also hinted that’s where he wanted to go to his Mum and dad.

It will be a small gathering too – Amar’s Mum and dad, Erik, and of course Amar and me.

Amar also said he wanted to try another of those Margarita drinks! LOL

Then we will return home to Amar’s house where Amar and I plan to have a bit quality time (albeit short because of a school night!), and then several hugs and kisses later, I will tuck my love in with a goodnight snuggle and head home.

My next anticipation is expanding on our quality time this weekend at the North Sea! Amar totally agrees!!

So, to my love and soul mate, and the Master of my Heart – we are as one in our love for each other!

Happy Birthday, Love!

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Carel, Pieter, and Joopey!


It appears the soap opera saga continues – but now there is something new!

On the tram ride to school this morning, Erik seemed fine and I think he was sorting things out in his heart and mind to sum up a serious chat with Parker.

“But not until after I have my time alone at the North Sea, Amar.” He told me as we got off the tram. “The Sea is a good listener.”

“I agree and understand, little buddy.” I said. “Ben should give me the word today if we are going this weekend, OK?”

But it was when I headed to Base that I was stopped by Carel!

“We need to have a serious chat, Amar.” He told me with a well worried look in his dark eyes. “A WELL serious chat!”

“No clues, Carel?” I asked as he unconsciously followed me into MY Base and up to my Station – getting a few looks from some of the others.

“It’s too long and complicated to go into without having enough time to tell you everything, Amar.” Carel sighed.

I too sighed. “Let’s meet in the Media Centre after lunch then.” I told him.

As Carel left, Ben came in and gave me a puzzling look. “Troubles in Carel Town, Love?” He joked, giving me a quick peck on the cheek.

“He wants to have a serious chat about something, but he wouldn’t give me a clue, Ben.” I shrugged as we unpacked our totes. “It looks like another Soap Opera is in the making.”

“Maybe Carel also needs a bit of time at the North Sea.” Ben winked, getting a grand hug from me when he said that’s where we would be heading this weekend AFTER I got the Doctor’s permission!


I was baffled and perplexed as I listened to Carel explain his dilemma – a complex one involving both Pieter and Joopey – as well as his family and the Harpers!

“Now Pieter wants to move back with the Harpers on weekends and Holidays, Amar,” Carel sighed as he began. “Joopey is missing staying with us and now HE wants to move back in with us on weekends and Holidays.”

“What do your Mum and dad say about this, Carel?” I asked.

“They think Pieter belongs with the Harpers.” Carel shrugged. “They said he just seemed happier before. They also miss Joop something terrible.”

“And what do YOU think?” I pushed.

“If I had it my way, I would have them both stay,” Carel smirked. “But I know that’s not possible. Actually, Pieter is great, but I sure miss Joop a lot. He and I go a lot further back and are closer.”

“Have you talked to either of them?” I asked.

“I had a chat with them both alone and together.” Carel said.


“Pieter agrees he was a bit happier living at the Harpers.” Carel said. “He misses them and misses the Music Store and everything. I think deep down he really wants to return. He’s a bit homesick, I think.”

“Then I think he should return.” I said. “What do the Harpers say?”

“They would take Pieter back in a heartbeat.” Carel smiled. “They miss him at the store, and on weekends and such.”

“And Joopey?” I asked of our mutual chum.

“He cried when he pleaded with me to let him live with us again.” Carel lowered his head. “He misses his room and even told me he loved us as his family.”

My heart filled with warmth and I smiled widely just then.

“I well think you solved your own dilemma, Carel.” I said, giving him a quick hug. “If Pieter wants to return to the Harpers, and the Harpers want him back. That should happen, and if Joopey loves living with your family as much as he says, then I think you should make the arrangements with your Mum and dad to take him back in.”

“I sure could use a chat with the North Sea about all this, Amar.” Carel sighed.

“Interesting you should bring that up, Carel.” I smirked.


Since I don’t have a Chemo drip session this Friday, the Doctor gave his blessings for a North Sea excursion! That is GRAND!

Ben said we should invite Carel AND Erik. He said there was plenty of room for them to have separate rooms at night and have at the Sea during the day!

“They won’t get in each other’s way when chatting with the Sea, will they, Ben?” I asked jokingly.

“It’s a BIG Sea, love.” Ben gave me a kiss.

Carel was well excited about being invited to the North Sea, and I was pleased that Erik was mature in saying nearly the same thing as Ben – that it was a big enough Sea to hear about both his AND Carel’s dilemmas.

It was quite the relief to have this Soap Opera solved in such short order!

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Problems Solved!

Just to let you know, the issues with Go Daddy (our server) seem to have been resolved and rectified.

It appears the entire server site was “hacked” by a group known as Anonymous. They caused havoc to the entire server base as well as hosting companies such as WordPress – which hosts my site and goes through Go Daddy.

So I decided to leave the post from yesterday up, since many of you might not have even been able to see or read it and leave comments.

Thanks for your understanding.


Also, to those in the United States, you are in the thoughts and prayers of Erik, Ben, my chums, and me.

From your British counterparts – We Also Remember!

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Mending Broken Fences

It has been a rough and tumble weekend for certain, and I was sure there would be plenty of fence to mend along the way.

Erik seemed in a bit of a “funk” and out of sorts during the tram ride home on Friday. Very rarely is he so quiet, so I knew something was amiss. But somehow I knew I had to tread lightly because getting it out of him and having him open up and tell me would be my biggest challenge.

“You know if you want to talk about anything, I’m here for you, little buddy,” I said quietly as we got off the tram and headed slowly home.

Erik just nodded without a word, so I didn’t press any further just then.

Mum gave me the questioning, caring eyes when we walked into the kitchen and Erik just kept on going slowly up to his room without saying anything. Even Terra seemed to question in her own way why she didn’t receive her usually tummy rub greeting from him.

“He seemed fine this morning,” Mum noted. “Did he tell you he doesn’t feel well?”

“He hasn’t said a word to me since we got on the tram, Mum,” I said. “I’ll give him a bit more time and go talk to him. Maybe him and I can walk Terra to the park and have a chat on our favourite bench.”


So, I decided to wait a bit and then “unleash” Terra on Erik.

I attached her leash in the kitchen and told her to “go find Erik”, and sure enough, our smart dog went straight up the stairs and Mum and I heard her scratching on Erik’s bedroom door before there was a click when Erik opened the door and let her in.

I took a quick dash upstairs to my room to drop my tote and use the loo, but unfortunately upon my return to the kitchen, Mum said that Erik and Terra had scurried down the stairs and out the front door without saying anything – Terra leading the way with my still glum brother in tow.

So I gave Mum a quick kiss, grabbed the couple of cookies she handed me and headed out the door after Erik and Terra.

Erik was already seated on our favourite bench when I approached, and Terra was busy sniffing at a few bushes, looking for a choice stick to chew on.

“Want some company, little buddy?” I asked cautiously as I sat next to him and handed him a cookie.

Erik shrugged, silently telling me he really did want company, but just didn’t want to say it. He took the cookie and gave it a little bite, chewing the morsel gingerly and letting out a low sigh.

“What’s wrong, little buddy?” I asked. “You know I hate seeing you all glum and such.”

“It’s not fair, Amar,” He sighed. “Things aren’t the same anymore. Things haven’t been the same since the end of summer holiday and the start of school.”

I was a bit more confused at that point. I was worried it had to do with my Chemo and what I was going through with my cancer. I was so wrong though.

“What are you talking about, Erik?” I turned to look at him.

Tears were running down his flushed cheeks, and he was sobbing so quietly, you could hardly hear him.

“Parker and me,” He whispered. “I really hurt inside.”

“Awww, little buddy. . .” I said, taking him in my arms and holding him as he hugged me hard and cried into my shoulder.

I let him cry himself out, which took a good ten minutes, but I think it helped. Eventually, he eased away from our hug and just stared blankly into the trees across from us as he wiped his swollen, red eyes.

“I thought Parker and me would be forever like you and Ben, Amar.” Erik barely said. “I guess we’re not, huh?”

“I think you two are a lot like us, Erik.” I said. “And I am certain you two won’t stop being forever chums. Things have a way of working themselves out, but sometimes it takes a little time because as you grow up, you find you might have a few more differences. But you and Parker are too much alike to not be chums forever.”

Erik let out a long, low sigh.

“I want to go away to the North Sea with you and Ben.” He said quietly.

“And Parker?” I asked.

“No,” Erik slowly shook his head. “I want to be alone at the North Sea. That’s where you and Ben have the chance to be alone and think. I want to be alone there and think as well.”

Terra brought us her stick, and I took it and tossed it for her to fetch.

“The Sea has a tendency of making one’s mind open up, little buddy.” I said. “That’s a grand choice to want to go there and think. You want me to talk to Ben?”

Erik shook his head. “That’s OK, Amar. I’ll talk to him.”

“You know Mum and dad will be asking why Parker isn’t staying with us this weekend.”

“I know.” He sighed again. “But it’s not like we’re not talking to each other, Amar. It’s just . . . I don’t know, it’s just. . .”

“I completely understand, Erik,” I told him, hugging him into me and giving his cheek a kiss. “I completely understand.”

“Thanks for being my big brother, Amar.”

“I wouldn’t have it any other way, little buddy.” I said. “Come on, let’s take Terra home and get ready for dinner and our studies. We can study in my room if you want.”

“I may end up spending the night.” Erik smirked.

“I promise not to run out of hugs, then.” I smirked right back at him as we gathered Terra and headed home.


We spent nearly the entire weekend together, and it was really a beautiful thing for both of us. In fact, I think it helped Erik as much as it helped me. We seemed to get to know each other all over again in a new light – An even brighter light.

He did talk to Ben, and arrangements are already in planning for the three of us to head to the North Sea as soon as possible. Of course, that’s not soon enough for Erik, but at least he has that hope of having a serious chat with the North Sea once again.

Ben and I will be there for his support and comfort.

Erik ended up going my Chemo drip session with me this morning, and I will admit, it was wonderful having my little buddy along to give ME comfort for a change.

He really does have a BIG heart, even though it is hurting a bit right now.

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FIXED – with other issues!

Well, the problem with my site is fixed.

Thank you to all of you who gave suggestions and tried to help, but dad said since we are paying for this, it is the responsibility of the server to fix and remedy the problems, and that is what they did. It just took a bit more time since I had other issues to deal with this weekend.

But things are up and running as normal now, so we can move on.

The other issues?

There was/is a problem with Erik this weekend, and I have been spending most of the entire weekend with him. He is in a major “funk” and we have spent quite a bit of time together talking about things and working everything out.

When he feels comfortable with me filling you in, I will do so, but most likely it won’t be until tomorrow’s post.

Just send Erik a cyber hug to help him through and to cope with this new dilemma in his life.



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